Junoon

Definitely a dream..

I am an unemotional human being, I don't feel sorrow or happiness. Or may be I do feel but, I don't realize that I do feel..

Trip is going to start from boarding bus from departure point to destination point, at 7:40 AM. I am all panicky as I am running from one station to other, to reach departure point. I don't know the routes ( from station to the departure point), I don't know if I can make it today , I don't know if I have time as I have flight to catch in evening, I know just one thing that is-- I need to meet and I need to meet today.. thats all! however, whichever, whatever ! Just need to meet!

I catch the bus at 7:40 AM and bus leaves at 8:00 AM. I am counting every minute till and when my bus will reach the destination. Driver said it takes around 4.5 hrs to reach. I do the math and realize I'll reach by 8 + 5 = 1:00 PM and I have flight to catch at 8:00 PM so I have to be back by 7:00 PM at the least and that means I'll have to leave by 2:00PM from destination.. Now thats how I plan..it seems like a decent plan!

So I am sitting half dreaming, half awake, half thinking, half planning,half scared , and the other half just waiting in anticipation, of the moment when I meet..

It is the half dreaming state that I can write this.. it is the half thinking state which is keeping me awake.. it is the half planning state which is making me think.. it is the fear that propelles me to think.. it is the thought, which I think I'll loose, which scares me.. and it is the Wait! It is about the Wait!!! Till date only few times I have waited so truly eagerly desperately madly.

Its been 4 hrs now.. destination is and has been in earshot distance from quite some time.. now its time that it is going to be in eyesight!

I got down at destination.. I run to book my tickets for the departure point .. as last bus leaves at 1:10 PM.. and its 12:40 PM. 10 mins from 12:40 PM to 12:50 PM were the longest!!

Finally I see her!! I kept seeing her.. this time I got the smile back!! I am recognized!
This time I stared right into the eyes and I was stared at, from corner of her eyes!

Those were the best 20 mins of my life!! Sitting on a bus station!!

Kuch kehna tha!!
Kuch sunana tha!!

I am sitting in bus and going back.. I feel pain.. not physical but kinda weird .. it is of the kind which originates from you being restless..from the wants! from the sheer helplessness! from the realization! from ...

Now I wait to see you once again..
Now I wait to feel your laugh..
Now I wait to hear silence..

I have fallen for you!
I KKnow it will be like This always! I do.

Road, मूवी

Its refreshing to see a movie which breaks all the stereotypes and creates and shows, a different world ( different from mainstream Bollywood movies). As the movie starts you can actually feel the pain as if you are the one trying to sell Aatma Tel. And as the movie ends you feel what? too soon man! what happened? its absurd!

But now when I think of it the movie did inspire me to look at life in general and correlate between the two ( the movie and the life :p).

- Movie has a absurd ending, Life definitely has a absurd ending what I mean is-- what is it all about the car,house,pay,hike, promotion,money etc and what you get after getting all that is Death! what a absurd yet fantastic end!

- Protagonist is out on a journey towards something, but he is all unawares of what all will befell him on the way . Like the situation where Deol find himself stuck on the road with 2 strangers, who ate his food, and his decision to run away leaving them stranded in the desert . Again let me get philosophical, in life you have a hazy idea of what you want but the situations that arise at times are totally absurd and those situations make you realize what you actually want and what you actually are.

- At times you gotta do what you don't want to. At other times the things, which you don't want to do but still do, help you out when you least expect them to. Like when Deol's Aatma Tel comes to his rescue when Deol et. al. are stuck with water dacoits. In life perceptions that you create about yourself and people create about you do matter. The above mentioned scene was the "best" example of the "best" marketing ( its all about creating a perception)! And as I am a guy associated with marketing for last 2 years all I have to say is " that was absurdly fantastic idea". Kudos to the script writer.

- Deol is god.He is -- I guess what Om Puri or Nasserudin Shah were for our dads' age, I mean with respect to the ability to demarcate oneself from the mainstream cinema.

- Remix of "Sar jo tera chakraye" was awesome! Nice song!

- Deol's movies get us in touch with stark realities!

You meet some.. you travel with some.. you leave some.. you have fun with some.. you help some..
in the end its just about --

"you gotta do what you gotta do!" -- no questions asked no answers given!

Random out-of-context quotes!

Problems are the sign of progression in ones life*

So, next time when someone says he has no problems! He is a damn liar,or he is not your good friend or he hasn't started living yet!

*of course it also implies that we learn from them!

D Traveller : Ayela!

A Trip of excesses!!

It was a trip to remember ( as all trips are :p)! Trip for connecting with old friends! Trip to trip on Hukkas,Shakes & Cold Coffees! Trip to binge! It was a trip of excesses!

Trip started with me flying to Mumbai!.. I had just a couple of days with me,and I had scores of friends to meet in Mumbai! The dilemma I had was whom, school friends or the college friends, to meet! As always I decided lets go and then plan! Now the only problem with this plan is- on execution you tend to leave out many important details. And guess what? thats what happened.

I just met 3 of my school friends. But hell ya we had galla of a time! The good part of the trip was we knew that all of us drink (or at least they knew I drink :p, the deal is that you are meeting your school friend with whom you haven't talked in ages) but we have never ever had a drink together. Now I believe that fun factor of drinking lies somewhere there.. like drinking with old friends! or with whom you drank 2 years ago! or with whom you drank in college with!

Trip was more than just about drinks! We checked out Cafe Leopold (which I have been planning to do since I read Shantaram). Their Burger ,Sandwich and Lolly pops were just amazing. What I liked about the place was the continuous chattering noise! the crowd! and the busy yet lazy attitude of the place. Other than this I liked the way they serve peanuts in small plastic cups.
We also checked out Cafe Mondegar and its famous cheese balls, though they were not that great!

Before checking out the eating places and toasting each other's drinking abilities, and capacities we also saw the absurd, weird and interesting photo exhibition, of some French photographer, and the Nariman point.


Sorry about it but the chronology of the trip has been excused few passages earlier.
So coming back to the point that I landed in Mumbai and went straight to my friends house who lives in Vile Parle,where Parle g's biscuit factory is. After reaching and catching up with my childhood friend, whom i haven't met in about 7 years (I have met him in those 7 years but not met Met him . You know what I mean, of course you do) we had awesome lunch.

Then we set out for shopping ! Mumbai is cheap if you know where to shop and what to shop. My friend knew where and what! and that saved a lot of time! After being done with that we went and sat in Phirangi Pani utilizing the happy hours! I am sorry to say this but that was the first time ever, that I insulted happy hours and I was not so happy about it!

After that we went to Amar Juice center and it was there that I met my life's ( till date ) best Cold Coffee. Also it was at Amar's that I ate Butter Idly and their award winning Pav Bhaji. I have had better Bhajis but the Pav part was the best, as it was soaked in butter.

Now talking about the ambiance of the place. I realize I cant talk or write about it. You gotta see and feel it on your own, but just to give you the idea please check out this -- http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=153707&id=741888582#!/photo.php?pid=3778657&id=741888582

After all this, time was for bike ride, in Mumbai, during night time. It was just plain awesome. I always use to think that yellow lights look cool in Bangalore but Mumbai experience changed my belief totally. We payed visit to Band Stand, to Juhu beach, and all those cool,traffic free, roads.

On the whole Mumbai experience was much needed experience, for my resume :

Mumbai.
City of a thousand epithets,
City of dreams
City that never sleeps……..
City of contrasts
Glittering, glitzy, glamorous
Slum infested, sweltering, sordid
Large hearted, balmy, gregarious
A tumultuous city…
Slithering snakelike along
the Arabian Sea.
Her spirit shining
Like the light of a million stars

Like a temptress of many moods
At day she is an angel, free and light.
She lets you be…. She lets you live…

by Leena Elizabeth

Where a cycle reaches faster than a car, Where everyone thinks himself to be a star
This is Mumbai my dear, but don’t fear, just cheer, come to Mumbai every year!

http://mumbainews.wordpress.com/category/poems/
http://mumbai-pushpa.blogspot.com/2008/07/poem-on-mumbai.html