Ennui

Lately I have noticed that the best of days and the worst of days don't matter any more!

Lately I notice :
I use to enjoy going out but now I sit all day long in my room engrossed in a book. I use to enjoy reading philosophy but now I enjoy Fantasy!

I use to love whiskey or Vodka but I have fallen for beer!
I use to think I can change few lives now I think I have changed allot!
I use to dream but I have given up on some!
I use to wear Jeans to office but nowadays I wear cotton pant to office !
I use to work late and hard but now I work only when absolutely required!
I use to have feeling of getting the job done but it seems feeling has given space to feeling of jealousy !
I use to think I was learning the worldly ways but now I think I have had enough!

I wish I get to meet Meursault, I need to ask how he managed it ? How?
I wish I get to meet Goldmund, I need to ask how he managed to ignore other perspectives? How?
I wish I get to meet Gertrude, I need to ask how was she so sure that it is Red! How?
I wish I get to meet Rand!

Laws of attraction

People whom i genereally admire are not the people who have all the time in the world for me, but the people who have to make time, for me, out of their daily schedule.