Junoon

Definitely a dream..

I am an unemotional human being, I don't feel sorrow or happiness. Or may be I do feel but, I don't realize that I do feel..

Trip is going to start from boarding bus from departure point to destination point, at 7:40 AM. I am all panicky as I am running from one station to other, to reach departure point. I don't know the routes ( from station to the departure point), I don't know if I can make it today , I don't know if I have time as I have flight to catch in evening, I know just one thing that is-- I need to meet and I need to meet today.. thats all! however, whichever, whatever ! Just need to meet!

I catch the bus at 7:40 AM and bus leaves at 8:00 AM. I am counting every minute till and when my bus will reach the destination. Driver said it takes around 4.5 hrs to reach. I do the math and realize I'll reach by 8 + 5 = 1:00 PM and I have flight to catch at 8:00 PM so I have to be back by 7:00 PM at the least and that means I'll have to leave by 2:00PM from destination.. Now thats how I plan..it seems like a decent plan!

So I am sitting half dreaming, half awake, half thinking, half planning,half scared , and the other half just waiting in anticipation, of the moment when I meet..

It is the half dreaming state that I can write this.. it is the half thinking state which is keeping me awake.. it is the half planning state which is making me think.. it is the fear that propelles me to think.. it is the thought, which I think I'll loose, which scares me.. and it is the Wait! It is about the Wait!!! Till date only few times I have waited so truly eagerly desperately madly.

Its been 4 hrs now.. destination is and has been in earshot distance from quite some time.. now its time that it is going to be in eyesight!

I got down at destination.. I run to book my tickets for the departure point .. as last bus leaves at 1:10 PM.. and its 12:40 PM. 10 mins from 12:40 PM to 12:50 PM were the longest!!

Finally I see her!! I kept seeing her.. this time I got the smile back!! I am recognized!
This time I stared right into the eyes and I was stared at, from corner of her eyes!

Those were the best 20 mins of my life!! Sitting on a bus station!!

Kuch kehna tha!!
Kuch sunana tha!!

I am sitting in bus and going back.. I feel pain.. not physical but kinda weird .. it is of the kind which originates from you being restless..from the wants! from the sheer helplessness! from the realization! from ...

Now I wait to see you once again..
Now I wait to feel your laugh..
Now I wait to hear silence..

I have fallen for you!
I KKnow it will be like This always! I do.